Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
SSCS went pretty well today. Although I'm not sure of some of the MCQ's answer due to selective studying, but I THINK I know most of them (I hope =/ ). Kinda wasted as too much time was spent on structuring the executive summary and in e end, I've not much time to write up on Qn 3. So much to write and so lil' time. Oh well, I guess I have to prioritize for my next paper. Oh man~ Another round of intensive writing again. And BEST PART~! I nearly forgot to transfer the answer from the question paper to the answering booklet. I did it in the last 3 mins. God bless. *phew phew* Must be due to my lack to sleep. Oh man, I'm awake for more than 24hours already. Felt weak, drained and lousy now.
After that, rushed home to prepare sandwich for Baby's breakfast tomorrow. He's sick for almost a week already. Oh man. Cycles of sore throat and coughs =( Erm, it's my first time preparing sandwich. Hope it dun turn out diastrous. Will know tomorrow morning. =X Had our weekly dinner at Hougang Mall den went to Punggol Park to slack. It's windy night. Nearly dozed off in Baby's arms. It seems like a dream~ ^^
I'm looking forward to weekend!!~ It's Halloween celebration at St. James and KTV session on Saturday with Baby's buddies~ I haven't sing for ages! WooooHooooooooo.
OMG~!~!~! He sms-ed me saying that he started munching on the egg sandwich!! Haha. His taste buds got numb by the sickness but he says surely nice de.. Wooohooooo~!~!~! Ho high arhhhhh~!~*! Okie, I'm kissing my keyboard already, gonna hit the sack~!*
Signing off with love,
Crystal
You're my sweet addiction...
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
I was reading a blog that Dear showed me. Very inspiring and self-reflective, I would say. It made me slow down my pace and looked back on what I've been missing out in life. It gave me the courage to tell Dear those stuff before we got together as well. Two-thumbs up plus 5-Stars. I happened to come across this statement by the author:
“To live is to first dare to love, then experience the heartache of losing it and finally finding the courage to love correctly again.” - by Antoni @ http://www.anntonii.blogspot.com
Looking up, I saw "the memory". I've finally decided to do something. Something that I should be doing nearly 2 years ago, but I didn't, or rather, I don't bear to. I finally took it off my board after it has been there, close to 4 years.
"the memory"
If you've seen this, you must be surprised and yes, it's still around. Although this is not the 1st gift you've given to me, but it's the 1st gift after you came back to me. It was for our 1st month anniversary dated, 1st Oct, 2004.
I still remembered we quarreled the night before, cos you're so tied-down financially that you couldn't afford to get me a anniversary present. I told you it's okie, I don't need anything materialistic, but still you vented ur frustration on me, and we ended the conversation in the most unpleasant way.
The next day we meet and you presented "the memory" to me, telling me you bought the lil' card and lil' bunch of flowers with ur last penny, stayed up till wee hours to complete this. I remembered you showed me the drawing when we're 1st together, I liked it and requested to have it. But you said no, cos you liked it alot too, despite me looking real disappointed. After seeing the drawing there, I was almost moved to tears. That's when I know I'll love you for long time.
Although we argued over minor issues time and again, we never failed to make it up. Do you still remembered we had a big quarrel nearly after our 1st year anniversary cos some idiot called you and told you to let him take care of me? And we didn't meet for the whole month. I thought, that's it, it's over. But no. We managed to clear things up. Then after, we spent the rest of the time happily, with minimal arguments.
It was then I decided that we should live our lifes individually. I see no future in us, and most importantly, my parents will never smile at us in acknowledgement. I felt terrible, lying to my mom that we've broken up and our meetings are always secretive. I feared holding hands in public, in case any relatives saw that and report to my mom. I hate the feeling of approaching one of my close guy friends and told him to pretend to be my bf, just to take a picture and show my mom to convince her that I'm no longer with you. Call me a chicken, a scaredy-cat, or what's not. I have no choice.
So I've decided to let go. It wasn't an easy process. No, I didn't cry after the breakup. Cos my tears dried up while making the decision. I lived a senseless life, and indulged into clubbing. It's a weekly routine for me. Maybe I was happy, or maybe I wasn't. I dunno cos I felt nothing.
One day, I saw your MSN nick and realized that you're attached, I felt happy for you, at the same time, depressed for myself. Our conversation tends to confine to only "Hi, how are you?", "I'm fine." and "Gtg, bye." most of the time. The long hours of laughing and crapping were gone, leaving behind a trail of awkwardness. Soon, we don't even chat anymore.
Then after, I started to date guys. I dunno what's my feeling towards them. I dunno have I truly forgot, or I allowed my selective memory to take control. I tried to give more and take in lesser. But I can't. One fine day, I met another guy. I really liked him, and I thought that he could grant me a fresh start in life, but it seems that he wasn't taking me for real. It's then back to Square One.
After nearly 2 years of obscurity, just when I thought I am going to celebrate 2 years of singlehood, Dear came along. After so long, he's the one that I'm willing to give in more and take in lesser, after you. It marks a new begining for us and I know he's the one that I'm searching for in these 2 years. I always told Dear about us and he doesn't mind as he will tell me stuff about his ex-gf which I always listened to attentively. Don't worry, I'm veri well taken care of now. And that's when I've totally let go, but it doesn't mean that I'll forget about you and the "the memory", just that I've safeguarded them somewhere inside, somewhere deep down in my heart.
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
Dear Bloggy,
Today is Tuesday and is Gelare Waffle Day. I need my dose of double, Triple, MULTIPLE ice cream with waffle badly!!!!!!!!! Exams are driving me nuts! Somebody save meeeeeeeeeeeeeee! T.T
Godamnit. This looks heavenly!
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
Monday, October 27, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
Baby's sweet. Sms-ed him I hunger hunger. He bought chicken pie down, while collecting his handphone's spare battery and documentations. Ermmm, a 5-mins quick meeting and huggie made me a happy girl! *jumps jumps*
知足的人会比较快了。。
Anyway, Happy Deepavali~! Baby, it's your day, deyyyyyy~! Enjoy~! =X
Time to nap. Say wakie at 7am? =D
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
Time check: 6.32a.m. Reached home about 3am just now. Had dinner and headed to boilers, then supper for awhile with Dear's de buddy, his gf, Wan Yi, Desmond and his gf, Sharon. I tried to recall when was the last time I went for such couples outing, nothing strikes a bell. Means that it must be ancient yrs ago. Although most of the times, we concentrated on each of our partner, but it doesn't matter much I guess, cos seeing ur friends happy is a happy thing as well!
Dear told me he has been friends with his buddy since primary school, and played significant roles in each other's growing-up stages. Fought, played traunt, did unglam things together. Lol. Still, I feel that they're really fortunate, being able to stay buddies after so long. 10 over years I guess. It just made me pondered about my primary school mates. I found some of them randomly on friendster, but added and fullstop, that's it. Kinda sad huh? Thinking back, we used to behave like monkeys, climbing all over the place, did somersaults, and in skirts, with the boys. Which left big patches of blue-black on my lower-abdomen and my mom thought I was abused in school. LoL. And how we linger around the backstage, scaring ourselves with ghost stories, how we gossiped about our crushes endlessly, how our class is divided into clans, thought of ways to recruit more people in and we're not supposed to talk to people in the opposite clans. Nope, we're not "ah-lians" if that's wat u're thinking. Lol.
Gradually, as time goes by, we drifted as we were posted to different secondary schools. Maybe we were too busy to contact to each other. Maybe school work left us breathless. Maybe new friends occupied most of our time. Maybe... None of us actually bothered to keep in touch. Sad case~ But still I miss the good old days. Though, my primary school is still around, it looks like one of those haunted school that was featured in Thai movies. Lol. Seriously~
Oh, another thing, the buddy and his gf have been together for 8 yrs, since they're 17!! "It's really rare nowadays!!", I told the gf. She just smiled in acknowledgement. They must have been through alot of ups and downs to come to this point in life. So I asked when are they going to ring the wedding bells, and she replied in 3-4 yrs time and hope that me and Dear can attend their wedding. "Haha, yeah, hopefully" was my reply. Although I've only known them for a day, I still wish them all the best!! ^^
Following that, she asked how me and Dear met and told me, she had known him for 8years and that he's a good guy. Suddenly, it reminds me something my mom told me. On her wedding day, my dad's childhood nanny approached and told her that she haven't married the wrong guy. And after all these years, it justified her saying.
[[ What will become of us 8 years later, I pondered (: ]]
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
God didn't answer to my prayers, baby still fell sick in the end. Cough, flu and sore throat. Accompanied him to visit the doctor in the morning and after that headed home to rest. I guess it's the first time I saw baby in broad daylight. LOL. Normally I'd meet him after his work for dinner, or we'll sleep in late till evening time then head out. I feel we're pretty vampireyyy. =/
Taking a break from those mugging now. Oh man. Exams sucks big big time. Have to finish up the module so later I can watch my movie in ease. "Tropic Thunder" or is it "Tropical Thunder"?? Whatever it is, at least there's some motivation!! *woooohooooo* =D
I just [loves] [hearts] [adores] dates! Don't you? (:
Lastly, I happened to see this when I parked Missy at Dash's place. Cute 到~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
Me: OMG~ How come Misy and Dash slping tog?!?!??! CUTE!
Dear: I dunno, I off lights den they like that already.
Me: HORHOR! Dash seduced Missy!!
Dear: No lehs. Missy 心甘情愿。。
Me: My Missy jiu like that si sheng le~!*
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
Dear Bloggy,
OMG~! Dear just sent me something damn cute! I MUST upload! 好可爱哪！！！
Dear: Y u slp on the bed and I slp on the floor?
Me: Hahaha, next time slp tog. Ur house buy 2 beds!
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
Dear Bloggy,
So tired and shagged out from studying. I am some weird freak, I tell you. From the time I wakie, till midnight, I have no motivation to study and kept procrastinating. When I finally open up the disgusting book, I can't stop studying except for some short tea breaks in between. By the time I realized, it's already daybreak.
Not to mention my neck which is literally going to break. It aches like no-one business and just fucking hurts when I look down into my notes and jot down important points. It's a chore to hold my head upright without any support. Guess my engine's deteriorating. Urgh. I feel as though I might just get paralyzed from neck down. Darn.
I can't take such shit any longer. After 4 rounds of examinations, dunno why this time round it seems to be the most tedious, annoying and fearful round. I guess it's the combination of previous modules and the desire to clear all modules cos, Fail = Retaking the whole module = Delayed graduation = Dad will chop me up into pieces. Yeah, I think that's it.
But well, at least there's something to look forward to. Holidays~!*~!*~! Oh lord, please let November arrive earlier.
- 4th Nov: Marks the end of exams. Might be my very last day of being a student. Ermmm, ought to plan something for celebration.
- 5th Nov: Dinner with the girls and boys and perhaps party after that.
- 6th Nov: Going for Aston steak -> Jalan -> Movies: "The Coffin" -> Jalan Again -> Dinner -> Esplanade with Dear
- 7th Nov: Dear going to Phuket for a company-sponsored trip. =(
- 9th Nov: Going to airport to fetch Dear and we'll hunt for Popeye Chicken. Any1 knows which terminal is it at, pls tag me. (:
- 12th Nov: Flying off to TAIWAN!!!!!!!!!!!!
- 17th Nov: Dear fetching me from airport. <3
- 18th Nov: 1st month anniversary and Dear is on leave!!!! ^^
- 19th Nov - ??: Job Hunting. Oh my god. My worst fears.
Ermmmm, okie. The activities managed to cheer me up a lil. Should get down to the thick horrendous book already. >< Oh god, Please don't let baby don't fall sick anytime now. Please take away his flu, sore throat and cough. I promise I'll be a good girl.
Signing off with love,
Crystal
You're my sweet addiction...
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
I know this is lame, but is damn cute lahs! It's me and Dear's pet on Facebook! =D
*Missy kiss kiss Dash*
Signing off with love,
Crystal..
You're my sweet addiction...
Monday, October 20, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
Baby de words nearly moved me to tears the 2nd time, this time round through SMS. Maybe some of the people out there may think that it's just sweet-talking, so what's the commotion for? But I don't think so. I think I truly appreciate this saying: "God will let you meet the wrong people in life, so when you meet the right one, you truly know how to cherish."
20 Oct 2008 02:21a.m. : “ 很高兴缘分让我们在人生的旅程认识了对方。我不知道什么叫做永远，但是我知道的是，我们可以牵着彼此的手去寻找这个答案。”
I want to blog every single moment down, just in case, next time if we're no longer happy, we can look back and realize how happy were we previously, hopefully after that, we can be happy again. =)
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
I dunno why the logs have indentations problems but, I've decided to keep this in it's most original state (: Supposed to meet Dear's bestie and his gf. So his friend asked, "What time will ur gf be ready?" So he called me and ask, upon hearing that, I was pretty shock. So I clarified my doubts online. It's a sweet pleasant surprise. <3
(7:29 PM)  Missy SILLY Cr: | ehh i got qn to ask.. |
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| (7:29 PM) .....::::::::: E: | ya |
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| (7:29 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | we're considered tog? |
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| (7:30 PM) .....::::::::: E: | yes we are. |
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| (7:30 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | orhh.. |
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| (7:30 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | when huh?? |
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| (7:31 PM) .....::::::::: E: | when i decide to hold ya hands.. |
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| (7:31 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | ermmm means last nite.. |
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| (7:31 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | okok.. |
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| (7:32 PM) .....::::::::: E: | i dont go ard hugging pple, holding their hands if i dont wana be together with em |
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| (7:33 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | ermmmm orhhh.. understood.. |
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| (7:33 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | i just ask nia.. cos i wanna jot down in my organiser |
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| (7:33 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | lol |
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| (7:33 PM) .....::::::::: E: | lolx... |
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| (7:33 PM) .....::::::::: E: | jot down in ya memory can liao |
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| (7:34 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | 171008 |
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| (7:34 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | ^^ |
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| (7:34 PM) .....::::::::: E: | its 18 lei |
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| (7:34 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | huh?? that time already past midnite le huh? |
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| (7:34 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | okok i edit |
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| (7:34 PM) .....::::::::: E: | lolx |
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| (7:35 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | hehehe.. |
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| (7:35 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | i jot down everything.. when we 1st met, talk on phone, when i 1st saw u |
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| (7:35 PM) Missy SILLY Cr: | hee |
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After that, met Dear and went down to Boilers. Yes, again. LOL. But I promised I'll mug before that and I did! =D
Dear: 快一点~ 很烧。。。
Me: Den 你不要动啦。。。
Pic taken before we turned Fuji Apple.
Been so long since I done this! Sweet!
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
Yesterday was a happy night. Met Elric at Hougang, unfortunately was ABIT late =X Hee, as usual. Headed down to Vivo for dinner at Mac's and I get to watch my "Butterfly Lover". Although it seems like a combination of Liang Shan Bo & Zhu Ying Tai rojak-ed with Romeo & Juliet, but generally, I still quite like it. Cos, THERE'S WU ZUN~!*~*!*~! Okie, call me shallow. LOL. But still, thanks for watching with me, ALTHOUGH u kept laughing when they're about to die. *bites*
Me: There's Wu Zun and Charlene!!!!!
Elric: I prefer Gillian~
Me: OMG~ Reminds me of her sex scandal.
Elric: -____________-
Then, headed down to Boilers together and met Jie & her colleagues. Felt a lil uncomforty though, as we don't know them, so just stayed at the back to enjoy the music and hang around till 2 plus and home sweet home~ I still enjoyed myself, I guess it's the company u're with that will make a difference. =) Will collect pictures from Jie next time and post them up. ^^
And thanks for sending me back safely to my doorstep, without fail. <3
Signing off with love,
Crystal.. ...
You're my sweet addiction...
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Dear Bloggy,
在他的呵护下，我知道我是幸福的。这些年内，多少男生让我掉过伤心的眼泪，可是也唯有他，能让我落下感动之泪。
.....::::::::: Elric :::::::::..... Run The Sh0w says (3:22 PM):
u dont wan go nap liao ah
.....::::::::: Elric :::::::::..... Run The Sh0w says (3:22 PM):
wait u fall sick how~
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:23 PM):
den u take care of me lors
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:23 PM):
=X
.....::::::::: Elric :::::::::..... Run The Sh0w says (3:27 PM):
u know i will...
.....::::::::: Elric :::::::::..... Run The Sh0w says (3:27 PM):
=)
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:31 PM):
but i wun want to fall sick.. cos...
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:31 PM):
i felt that i'm already veri taken care of already..
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:31 PM):
by u.... =)
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:32 PM):
谢谢你。。
.....::::::::: Elric :::::::::..... Run The Sh0w says (3:37 PM):
=) tats sweet
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:39 PM):
^^
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:40 PM):
u too
.....::::::::: Elric :::::::::..... Run The Sh0w says (3:42 PM):
awww....feel like hugging u
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:42 PM):
me too...
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:42 PM):
=)
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:44 PM):
and.. i also wanna say something..
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:54 PM):
although we don't know each other for long time, i truly appreciate ur efforts and everything u've done. might seems insignificant to u, but it means a great deal to me after all the shits that happened. though, we dunno wat has destiny has planned for us, but i know i'm grateful that god let our paths cross and i'm sure that i wouldn't take all these for granted.
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:54 PM):
cos..... it has already left a lifetime impact on me...
Missy SILLY Crystal says (3:54 PM):
=)
.....::::::::: Elric :::::::::..... Run The Sh0w says (4:00 PM):
=) do u know that hardly any gal can make a gemini went speechless like the way u do?
.....::::::::: Elric :::::::::..... Run The Sh0w says (4:00 PM):
well, u said u dont knw wat destiny has planned for us, but i can tell u this that i m sure it will be a good one...
No matter what happen this time round, I will always want to remember this part of our conversation. Cos it truly touched my heart.
Signing off with love,
Crystal...
You're my sweet addiction...
