Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Dear Fairy Bloggy,
This 2 days, training have been so fun. Lolz. We laughed so much can. Haha. Yest during our afternoon break at the pantry, I asked Wei Liang if he knows where can buy nice "dispenser". I still abit stoned when he looked at me with a stunted look on his face. I've asked that so innocently not realizing I said something wrong. Well, the next thing i know, he pointed to the soap dispenser right beside the sink. Soon after, everyone start breaking into laughter. Only then, I switched from my "sleep"mode to my "alert"mode. How disgraceful. Lolz.
Today, yes, I did something silly again and got sabotaged and the same time! ><" We were asked to do an activity that required us to find the ways to distress from the alphabet A - Z. De Xin just said S for Sex! I was like -.- He realli wrote down in the chart S for Sex. Hurhur. Lolz. Den we were thinking for the letter P. This De Xin joker suggested P for PCC! I stared at him like that ---> O.O speechless den he said P for Playing Chinese Chess. As If!!! Lolz. Next we were cracking out brain for the letter Q. I just randomly says "Aiya Quickie lahs Quickie, Sex also write le" They really wrote that it! During presentation Leon, Wei Liang & De Xin pointed at me! Fantastic! Now I got to present. When I got to the Letter Q, I literally blushed like an apple. ><" The whole class was laughing n laughing. Sickening.Well, at least that kinda keep me awake for a moment. The laughing part I mean!! Now wat are u thinking abt?!?!?!?! Lolz.
Signing Off With Love,
Fairy ^.^ V
You're my sweet addiction...
Monday, June 18, 2007
Dear Fairy Bloggy,
I've straightened my thoughts and moved out of the depressed state. That's not me. A big NONO. Hehe. Well, It may seems amazing how I managed to release myself out of that pathetic state that fast. Well, just that last nite I looked into the skies and realized that for the past 2 nites, I haven't been seeing stars. One of my fav. past-time at nite. Perhaps they feel for me too? Naive thinking yeah? But that's really what I thought at that point of time. So I demanded myself to be strong and face everything instead of running away like a freaking ostrich. I realli do feel better. And I must be happier than him.
M U S T ^.^ V I implanted a thought in me, that I must be bubbly and cheerful back to the old me so that the stars would shine again side by side with the cascading moonlight. And guess wat!?!? I saw stars tonight. It just plant a smile on me . =D
I laughed more than usual. I smiled more than usual. I broke into chuckle more than usual. I play and joked ard with my my colleagues more than usual. Ppl ard me are happy that I'm back to the old me. Friends are relieved and everyone is happy. That's double thumbs-up!! And that's not suppressing my feelings. Well, but the bad thing is that I've closed my heart. Shut it out from guys. No more putting in true feelings. It has been harden. Not gonna let guys affect me anymore~ I should learn to love myself more. (:
2 days ago when I read the email that he sent me, I'll cried like a limitless water tap. But just now when I read the email again. I smiled and gracefully deleted it off. I dun deny that I still feel a lil' emo when I read that email but the impact is diminishing.
People always think the grass on another side is greener but when they looked back, they realized that there's no more grass at the previous grassland anymore. Too late.
Sealing The Memory With A Kiss <3
Signing Off With Love,
Fairy ^.^ V
You're my sweet addiction...
Sunday, June 17, 2007
My heart is as dead as a stone. My mind is blank. My soul doesn't even seems like it belongs to me. It is just a mistake to start out trying. Won't it be better to stay off as frens all the way? Am I just dumb not to know that he's young and still playful? Or I rather ignore the fact that he is? Whatever it is, it just set me in this undesirable agonized state. How badly I wanna run away from this.
My heart hurts so badly that it seems like it's gonna stop pumping anytime. That friday nite, I just turned my back on him, crying myself to slp. It was so painful to be anywhere near him. Those tears just won't stop. It just dropped everytime I think abt it. It'll only stop when I'm outside. And darn, those endless tears are setting me in a feverish state. When you're down on your luck, everything bad starts hitting on u.
Don't he realize that more care n concern is only making me feel worse? I would rather he ignore me once and for all. The email and the SMS this morning only sets me in another round of endless tearing. Why says anything I can talk to him? And y wanna be there for me? And y still adores me? He raised me into cloud nine and overnight I sank into hell. But I never blame him for that. All that I asked from him is not to treat me nice and sweet anymore. My last request.
But at least there were a few consoling things, things done by my beloved frens. Fel and Samantha listened to me cried my heart out over the phone. After that said tons of consoling words to calm me down. There were few SMS by my lovely frens. At nite, Jimmy knew that I was really down and missed the beach. He came down and fetched me to East Coast then to Punggol Park for a walk. I'm realli grateful. He's trying his best to keep me entertained the whole nite with his jokes. =)
I wanna find the happy and cheerful Fairy back. Wish me luck.
You're my sweet addiction...
Friday, June 15, 2007
Dear Fairy Bloggy,
It's been a hard day for me. There's only one feeling in me. I N S E C U R E. My mind is blank. Mood hanging low. Chui.
Signing Off With Love,
Fairy ^.^ V
You're my sweet addiction...
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Dear Fairy Bloggy,
Erm, I'm in office rite now. Supposed to be studying for a test later but I'm happily blogging rite away. Aaaaaw. Bad.
Time Check: 3.23 pm. Ard a hr or so to off work. So tired. I'm drained. ><>
Signing Off With Love, Fairy ^.^ V
You're my sweet addiction...
